Sunday, February 28, 2010

Heartbroken Children...

make for an even more heartbroken Mommy.

Thursday before last, Malachi did not sleep a wink. He was tugging on his ear and sure enough he had an earache. We started antibiotics and figured it would clear up like it always does. After leaving the doctor he started vomiting and the temperature starting rising. We did the motrin/tylenol thing and Saturday after waking up from his nap, his neck was huge. After calling the doctor we made the decision to go to the ER.

The ER doctor put us on a stronger antibiotic and told us to keep doing the motrin/tylenol rounds. Wednesday morning when he woke up with 103.7 for the sixth straight day, Tony took him back to the doctor. They ran lots of tests on him, which meant bloodwork, and took x-rays of his chest. Everything came back good. The doctor just thinks he had a very bad virus. Finally, Friday morning we had no temperature!! Yea!

During this same week we dealt with a very saddening tragedy. Monday morning I received a text from Isaak and Jordy's mom saying that her Papaw (the man who raised her) had a major heart attack and did not make it. This was an amazing man. He was always telling me how grateful he was for me and how blessed his grandkids are to have me, but the truth was that I was so blessed to have known him. He was a great preacher, husband, father, and grandfather. It is still hard to believe he is gone. His wife, who Tony and I call "Mamaw," is just as great as Papaw. She is so loving and kind, but I learned this past week how much strength she has. She got up and spoke at the funeral of her husband of 41 years. She was so strong for Isaak and Jordenne. Friday night she had a grandkids pizza party. They had so much fun. They had a popcorn fight and a pillow fight. They ate lots of pizza, ice cream, and cupcakes. They sat around at one point and talked about Papaw and told stories about him. Then, this great woman of strength, went around the circle of all the grandkids and told each one of them why they were special to Papaw.

Isaak was very close to Papaw because that is who he lived with until he was 5 (before he moved here). We decided to wait until Tuesday evening to tell the kids. Trista called on Tuesday evening and shared the news with Isaak first. He put the phone down and just clung onto me. Then Jordenne was told and curled up in her daddy's lap. They sobbed for awhile and we talked about heaven and that talked about how Papaw is with God and Junior (Tony's brother). That was by far the most difficult thing I've ever had to do. Seeing your babies' hearts break is terrible. I cry just thinking about it. My kids, in the last week, have went through something at 5 and 8 that I haven't gone through.

On the way home today, we stopped in downtown Granbury for some good Blue Bell ice cream!

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Playing Catch Up With Pictures...

My mom has a great camera, so I just use hers instead of buying one for me :). Unfortunately, I rarely download the pictures after I take them. This past weekend, I downloaded pictures from the first day of school, Halloween, Christmas, and our Feb. snow day! I guess better late than never!

First Day of School 2009

Isaak--2nd grade Jordenne--Kindergarten

Halloween 2009

Christmas 2009

Snow Day 2010

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Not just Valentine's Day...

It's the day that my love asked me to be his bride. Four years ago, Tony took me to Olive Garden with a cheesy grin on his face that I'll never forget! One of these days I will take the time to type up our whole story! Unfortunately I have ZERO pictures from that fabulous day, so I'll share one of our engagement pictures. I wanted to type the words that were written in the card I got him because I think it is so very true for us.

When we found one another,

we chose to listen to what

our hearts knew to be true

instead of what others would say.

We chose to believe that love exists

outside the lines people draw

and that happiness does, too.

And now, when I look at you

and see all of the goodness you are

and all that you

have made right in my life,

I would do it all over again.

I'm so in love with you,

so sure of what we have,

so proud of us.

We chose what matters most--

each other.

~S. Berry


I am so grateful that God molded you just for me! I am so glad that I followed my heart and did not listen to all the murmurs around me. God already knew our story and I cannot wait to keep living that story out with you. We've been through more that most couples go through in 20 years and I am so blessed that I was able to have you by my side through it all. You are an amazing man of God! Thank you for asking me to be your wife and for loving me unconditionally. Just like the card read, I would do it over and over again!

With All My Heart,


Tuesday, February 2, 2010


Why do bad things happen to good people? I have found myself asking this question many times over the past few weeks...I just don't get it. I also know that it's not for me to get. Everything God does is for reason and we just have to make sure that we still glorify Him through it all.

I was asked this by a colleague of mine recently and it is a very hard question to answer to someone who is not a full fledged believer. He asked why my God that is so great and that I live to praise a God who could be so mean. All I could answer is that you just have to have faith in what He does. I daily take a leap of faith and trust that what He has happen is for the best.

So, this past weekend, here we go again. One of the most precious people I have ever met, a dear friend of mine in college, a twenty-seven year old man with a fiancee had a brain aneurysm. WHY? He spends his everyday giving everything he has to God. He has one of the best voices I've ever heard and he uses it to lift up our Heavenly Father. So, again, I am not to question...I am to believe that God is the healer. I am praying for a speedy recovery and that God heal him to a full recovery. There are rumors of brain damage and him being paralyzed, but they haven't been confirmed yet. What I do know is that God is good and he will heal. I know that Shannon is a man of God and would let anything happen to him, even a brain aneurysm, if it meant God would be glorified even more.

I am asking you to join me and the many other people that have been touched by Shannon. There is a facebook group called Prayers for Shannon "Superman" Bailey where you can go and read about Shannon and see a couple of videos of him. He is blessed with a great sense of humor and a voice that is angelic. There is even a paypal account set up for him if you feel led. But really, all I want you to do is pray for healing.